ok so i asked him today...

how badly do you want me as your wife?
ans: badly. very badly. extremely badly.
what makes you so sure?
ans: because i need you. you are like the jigsaw puzzle, and complete me. with you, the picture comes out.

and den i told him later in the nite that i was afraid of losing him, afraid that he might leave me one day.. afraid that we wont get married.
so he told me wont..
he wont leave me, i wont lose him, and we will get married.

and whn i asked him why is he so confident abt it.. he tells me that he needs me.

at least, i feel comforted.

tho i know there's sth missing now, i guess its trust.
and tho i know there's a kinda distance between us,
i hope after some time everything will be fine.
perhaps im really just too sensitive to my own feelings. and i really hv to ctrl and chng that abt me.
he still loves me like he used to do. he still loves me a lot. this was wat he told me ytd.
i shud believe him, and not fear.

im gg to learn to be determined, and not give up.
this r/s with him is what i want. its sth that i need.
he's whom i want. he's whom ive decided to stick with.
so whatever i do for him, im gg to give my best.
and more than the best.
i will do wat i can, i will go all out, and do what it takes.
i will give him my everything, and make him my everything.
i will put my heart and soul, use my heart and soul.
im gg commit myself completely in this r/s and trust him completely.
i'm gg let both of us be happy in this r/s and stop being so over sensitive to my own feelings.
all i want is to see him happy, cuz he is the one i love.
and on top of that, i dun wan to regret anything that i do. as such, im gg to give my very best.

i love leonard.

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